spring-20
20200409_1810

sometimes it seems like the depth of self hatred grows in direct proportion to the efforts made to overcome it.



20200416_1218

the only way to make something is to make it in the way you have to make it so that it gets made.



20200417_0808_rt

i've caught up the text pages into fall-19 and reformatted them in a way that i think will work long term.

if it was possible, i would choose to catch up all the way until the present and then update into the pages in real-time.

that is almost possible, but so much change happens in such a short period of time that it isn't really possible to create the most cohesive narrative of the near-past.

this means that for a time i will not be able to post winter-20 because it will not have any real-time contributions.

truthfully, the ability to determine a narrative is powerful and confusing and imbued with a great feeling of responsibility.

narrative-as-truth doesn't mean that the provided narrative IS truth.





20200504_0706_rt

april showers bring may flowers.



20200512_1958_rt

the Good News is i am once again swimming in desire.