a different focus
a different focus
cotaco

we made an album. released september 18th, 2020.

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1) if you don't wanna die (2:29)
2) the clown (4:06)
3) a different focus (3:32)
4) pineapple lady (2:40)
5) lover, let me know (4:13)
6) the star that burned first light (2:55)
7) self love (1:35)
8) the sound of pain (0:32)
9) you should know (3:58)


album cover

joshua sanford:


mac mcdonald:


james rogers:


andrew trotter:


if you don't wanna die

music and lyrics: joshua sanford

if you don't wanna die
you gotta go and find some soap
and wash your hands, your filthy hands

if you don't wanna die
you gotta go and find some hope
find some hope for your filthy soul

if you don't wanna die
you gotta go and find a hole
find a hole and lay it down

if you don't wanna die
you oughta go consult the pope
but he don't believe in god no more

if you don't wanna die
you gotta go and cross your toes
and skip-de-loo downtown like you know

if you don't wanna die
you gotta show the eskimo
show him how she throws


the clown

music: mcdonald/rogers/sanford
lyrics: joshua sanford

i'm goin' down
to meet the clown
put the makeup on
yeah get it on

i cannot escape
what i've made
put the makeup on
yeah get it on

no one wants you
no one needs you
no one loves you
no one needs to

i'm going down
to meet the clown
put the makeup on
yeah get it on

i cannot escape
what i've made
put the makeup on
yeah get it on


a different focus

music: mcdonald/rogers/sanford
lyrics: joshua sanford

day and night i live my life
dreaming toward some purpose
feeling low, it's time to go
become a different person

i'm so sick of being me
i'm sorry

if i could walk the thousand miles
if i could swim the deep blue sea
i'd stand before that lonesome valley
and what i see would still be me

sun and moon, another june
a different focus
terrified to be alright
then comes the crashing down

i'm so sad if this is free
i'm sorry

if i could walk the thousand miles
if i could swim the deep blue sea
i'd stand before that lonesome valley
and what i see would still be me

i don't know why
i can't feel that high that others feel
i don't know why
i can't feel


pineapple lady

music: mcdonald/rogers/sanford
lyrics: rogers/sanford

my pineapple lady
she'd like to move to hawaii
she'll set up a fruit stand
and live by the water
my pineapple lady
my pineapple lady

we gotta live while the living is good, so good
but it's so hard to tell the difference between dying and the truth

my pineapple lady
no matter where i find you
you're my adventure
you know i'll always love you

my pineapple lady
my pineapple lady
my pineapple lady
my pineapple lady


lover, let me know

music and lyrics: joshua sanford

lover, let me know what's in your mind
lover, let's enjoy our piece of time

hallelujah and praise the lord
i found a woman that makes my life whole
hallelujah and praise the lord

lover, never let me let you down
lover, always know i love your love

hallelujah and praise the lord
i found a woman that makes my world whole
hallelujah and praise the lord

i love you baby, yes i do
i love you baby, yes i do
i love you baby
i love you baby

open up your mind
feel the surface rise
you're the ocean's tide
you're the morning light
you're the sailor's sea
you're the map and key
you're the moon that glows
you're the star that shows
you're the evening breeze
you're the hope in me
you're the eye that shines
you're the tie that binds
you're the point of life
you're the reason why


the star that burned first light

music and lyrics: joshua sanford

the star that burned first light
shining through her eyes
mother nature heed my call
let my woman have it all

the effort at the dawn
when the paradigm of time
discovered that it be
did it have a choice in me

i like to think that you were there
i'd like to think we all should care
cause i'm afraid to die
wondering if i could have loved you more

the star that burned first light
shining through her eyes
mother nature heed my call
let my woman have it all

the effort at the dawn
when the paradigm of time
discovered that it be
did it have a choice in me

mother nature heed my call
let my woman have it all
let my woman have it all
let my woman have it all


self love

music and lyrics: joshua sanford

i don't know how
to make you feel so complete
but, wouldn't it be so neat
if i could make you feel so sweet

get used to disappointment baby
in fact, get used to me calling you baby

i don't know what it means
that someone out there is loving me
there's not much self love going on
except for when i've got a hard on

get used to disappointment baby
get used to what our world is made of


the sound of pain

music and lyrics: joshua sanford

i'm in pain
i'm in pain
this is the sound of pain
i'm in pain
i'm in pain
listen here this is the sound of pain
i'm in pain
i'm in pain
listen here this is the sound of pain
it's the sound of pain
it's the sound of pain
the sound of pain
this is the sound of pain


you should know

music: mcdonald/rogers/sanford/trotter
lyrics: joshua sanford

pain is not a concept
pain is not a trend
pain is not your mother singing songs to you in bed
you should know
you should know
you should know

pain is not a moment
pain is not a brand
pain is what you get from being born into our world
you should know

pain is not a process
pain is not divine
pain is not a prison where you can sit and do your time
you should know

pain is not a concept
pain is not my god
pain is what i wake up feeling morning until night
you should know
you should know
you should know